Yoga leads to....

Twelve years of yoga practice- from Bikram to basic Hatha- in class, at weekend retreats and at home and I am finally ready to delve a little deeper into Indian culture. I am a little obsessed with India. Bollywood movies, Indian music, Indian food, and now Ayurveda. My very first massage was at an Aveda spa in Seattle. It was amazing- the aromatherapy, the service. I have been an Aveda user for years. I have started to pay a lot more attention to the ingredients in my cosmetics. I try to eat local meat and shop at the farmers market. I drink organic milk and grow my own tomatoes.

I started thinking about my relationship with food a few years ago. I lost weight on Weight Watchers and then starting working for them. I realized that there was a huge component missing from my weight loss life - life. As soon as my constant vigilance stopped, I gained the weight back. I am not trying to lose the weight again. I am trying to find some peace; to stop hating myself for gaining weight; to stop making weird food choices based on how many points I have left in my daily allowance.

I have Geneen Roth's books, Marianne Williamson's, lots of e-books on Kindle and Martha Beck's Joy Diet book. I've been reading about faith and thinking about where I want to be at 50. I listen to NLP (Neuro-linguistic programming) podcasts and know that I don't want to move away from something - extra pounds- but towards something.

And that something is: being comfortable with who I am. Feeling happy in my body. Feeling strong. Playing 18 holes of golf weekly no matter my age and being able to walk the course without any physical problems. Being able to play golf well. Feeling like an ally to my body not an enemy. Eating without guilt.

Is this too much to ask?  How do I achieve this?

In the May 2012 issue of Whole Living, they had a great 3 day fast that looked fun. Good foods and easy to follow.
http://www.wholeliving.com/176862/three-day-action-plan-reboot/@center/152870/2012-whole-living-action-plan
After hearing and reading about cleanses for so long, I thought, why not? I gave it a try and it was like a reboot. I felt GREAT. The food was good. And then I heard about Panchakarma. In my typical way, I started researching and here we are.... more on Panchakarma next week and the path it led me to.